Morph Choir

1. FOUND A SHADOW IN THE DARK, PT. I 

2. THERE (FEAT. ZAR FONNAN) 

last night i dreamed then wondered what more would keep me under

'cause that was far from an escape, i think it may have been a nightmare

it slowly slithered through me but all too soon consumed me

then told me it would be my fate, awake and struggle just to scream

'cause i still feel the pain even when it isn't there

yeah i still feel the shame where i know i should forget

yeah it still calls my name everywhere i lay my head

and it's not even there, it's not even there

clenching my teeth, bite my tongue

clutching the sheets, my firsts numb

release my grasp and all my past like that comes rushing back to haunt me

i admit i resent this part i've been forced into in my heart

i was left to think it's my fault, my wrong, and it can't be redeemed

'cause i still feel the pain even when it isn't there 

yeah i still feel the shame where i know i should forget 

yeah it still calls my name everywhere i lay my head 

and it's not even there, it's not even there

 

3. ALIBI (FEAT. ZAR FONNAN) 

this feels to me so fleeting, the most when i hold it close

i tried to chase the feeling but lost it before long

i hold it down so i can't replace it

i keep it close so i can grip it tight

i'd let it go or try to erase it 

it chokes me harder every time i try

feels like i'm lost in a dream sometimes but i can never wake up

i think i talk in my sleep some nights but it's just too hard to tell

i'm all i got for an alibi, i'm all i got looking out

feels like i'm lost in a dream sometimes but i can never wake up

the view from it is lonely but the thought of it makes up

for making it the only way to feel enough

i hold it down so i can't replace it

i keep it close to make an alibi

i'd let it go or try to erase it

but pulls me closer every time i try

feels like i'm lost in a dream sometimes but i can never wake up 

i think i talk in my sleep some nights but it's just too hard to tell 

i'm all i got for an alibi, i'm all i got looking out 

feels like i'm lost in a dream sometimes but i can never wake up

 

4. DON'T STOP (FEAT. ZAR FONNAN)  

there's a place inside my heart where forever takes too long

still i pray it never stops

don't stop

don't stop

i let a tidal wave rest on my body all just to quiet the noise in my mind

i'm never sure how to end or begin things so i'll just close my eyes and let it ride

please know that though i intended to hurt you

it's that part now i wish i could rewind

i thought that spreading this wound's what i wanted

but i just dreaded that look in your eye

there's a place inside my heart where forever takes too long 

still i pray it never stops 

don't stop 

don't stop

sometimes it feels like i've been left to wander and to exist with a heart far from kind

i don't know what standards now to live up to

i'm at a loss for all i could confide

please know that i can't help but to concede it

that all you did was from love and not lies

but even so this i know yet the feeling

crushes me, still too deep now to find

there's a place inside my heart where forever takes too long  

still i pray it never stops  

don't stop  

don't stop

 

5. STAIN (FEAT. ZAR FONNAN)   

i see it clearly now

i don't know how i missed it before

i thought that i could change you

all to fix what will always be torn

'cause i can't clean that stain left on me now

i've tried but can't deny how far we fell

we see things differently now

you from your side and me from my own

yet within my mind i judge you

within my heart i harden like stone

'cause i can't clean that stain left on me now 

i've tried but can't deny how far we fell

another thought i can't speak

another cut that slides through the throat 

yet still never fully leaves me

just aches and lingers deep in my bones

'cause i can't clean that stain left on me now 

i've tried but can't deny how far we fell

can't clean that stain left on me

can't clean that stain left on me

6. FOUND A SHADOW IN THE DARK, PT. II  

7. PARANOID (FEAT. XAVIAN & VLADELL)  

last night i heard her dream / she whispered in her sleep

she said, "please, please release me" / i asked, "what do you mean?"

she woke and sat up slow and said she didn't know

how do give trust to someone or even trust herself

"'cause when i walk outside and look into their minds all i can feel is distant"

she stopped and closed her eyes

her silence carried on / i asked if she was gone

i told her, "just relax and come here into my arms"

but she said, "don't try to control me"

she said, "you don't even know me"

"just leave me here on my own, i'm not paranoid just cautious"

she said, "don't try to console me"

she said, "don't try, you don't own me"

"you'll think whatever you want but i'm not paranoid, i'm not paranoid yeah"

i said, "you think too much" / she said, "you're out of touch"

she said, "you're self-absorbed and too much to know my heart"

i said, "things aren't that bad, if they were we'd all be sad"

and she said, "just look around" / and i said "don't be like that"

but she said, "don't try to control me" 

she said, "you don't even know me" 

"just leave me here on my own, i'm not paranoid just cautious" 

she said, "don't try to console me" 

she said, "don't try, you don't own me" 

"you'll think whatever you want but i'm not paranoid, i'm not paranoid yeah"

 

8. FLESH (FEAT. XAVIAN & VLADELL)   

"if i'd find peace somewhere else then i don't want to be here anymore"

she said then stopped and looked at me and asked if I would listen to her story

i said, "just come with me baby, it's getting late i'm not awake enough 

to talk you down from it tonight, let's just talk about it in the morning"

she said, "you're not fucking listening again, you always do this when i'm clearly on my knees"

she said, "did you hear a fucking word i said? just listen to me now and take it seriously"

"I don't want to wait"

"i don't want to ex--"

"i don't want to exist like this"

"i feel a darkness within me, one that i can't hold back anymore"

"you'd say it's all just a phase but in my heart it feels more like a warning"

"you're stronger than you think," i said, "you shouldn't worry anymore"

i said, "there's battles we all face, so you're not alone to feel at war"

she said, "you're not fucking listening again, soldiers in battle stand... this has me on my knees"

"i've got no armor, all i fucking got is flesh"

"the darkness surrounds and i'm all that's in between"

"I don't want to wait" 

"i don't want to ex--" 

"i don't want to exist like this"

 

9. GHOST (FEAT. XAVIAN & VLADELL)    

"is this a ghost town? am i a ghost now?"

"if you walk to me would you fall through me?"

"what's the point of love? it only tears me up"

"do i exist in your mind like this?"

"in our room like haunted, like that's what you wanted?"

"what's the point of love? it only tears me up... it only tears me up"

"do i exist in your mind like this?"

"i still want to kiss you, you're the one i miss and it's too much for me"

"in my heart i'm weeping"

she said to me once while i was sleeping

"is this a ghost town? am i a ghost now?" 

"if you walk to me would you fall through me?" 

"what's the point of love? it only tears me up" 

"do i exist in your mind like this?" 

"in our room like haunted, like that's what you wanted?" 

"what's the point of love? it only tears me up... it only tears me up"

 

10. YOU DO, YOU DON'T (FEAT. XAVIAN & VLADELL)     

i asked her what was wrong

she said she's had enough and that she was feeling numb

she pulled her blankets off, stood up and looked outside

and said, "it seems pointless now"

"well if that's how you've felt, why haven't you left yet?"

"just tell me what holds you back"

she said, "i've kept hoping something would change in you or me but now i can see..."

"i see you don't love me like you say you do"

"you don't know me like you think you do"

"you don't love me like you say you do"

"you don't, you don't"

i said, "i'm sorry if i've taken things too far or maybe not far enough"

"just know that I still love you like i always have, i just haven't been myself"

"well if that's how you've felt, why'd you wait this long just to say what's been in your head?"

"maybe it's too late and maybe it's been too late for way too long and it's dead"

"i see you don't love me like you say you do" 

"you don't know me like you think you do" 

"you don't love me like you say you do" 

"you don't, you don't"

i said, "honestly now, i don't know what's been wrong with me but i'll listen now"

i said, "i've felt so gone... i still think that i'm here and still feel as if i'm not"

she said, "oh really now? sounds like the darkness i've been telling you all about"

"you'll never listen, you're too absorbed in yourself and i see that clearly now"

"i see you don't love me like you say you do"  

"you don't know me like you think you do"  

"you don't love me like you say you do"  

"you don't, you don't"

 

11. FOUND A SHADOW IN THE DARK, PT. III 

12. FACELESS (FEAT. X-YORK)  

someone take me to a place that's somewhere i won't need a face

and no one needs to know my name and won't go anywhere i go

and would leave me alone

someone help me find a place that's somewhere i won't feel the shame

and no one knows all my depravity and won't hold it against me

and will leave and leave me be

i found my mind underground, yeah

searching for what i found now

had to dig a hole that was deeper

had to bar my soul from it's keeper

had to put a new face on lookout 

had to keep the world from looking in

had to find a way to give something

without leaving me with nothing

i found the flow and i floated

i found the word and i wrote it

finally found the strength that could hold me

finally found the pain and destroyed it

but over time, hands were empty

and friends were no longer friendly

now all the smiles start to fade

and all the words go to waste, yeah

someone take me to a place that's somewhere i won't need a face 

and no one needs to know my name and won't go anywhere i go 

and would leave me alone 

someone help me find a place that's somewhere i won't feel the shame 

and no one knows all my depravity and won't hold it against me 

and will leave and leave me be

goddamn, must not exist if i can't find it

still hurts too much to search

so i bid farewell to all that lead me here

to turn back now is to lay your crown

your darkness crawls within me now

carved in the walls, tied to my heart

chained to my hands, chained to the wall

with all my sins on full display now

someone take me to a place that's somewhere i won't need a face  

and no one needs to know my name and won't go anywhere i go  

and would leave me alone  

someone help me find a place that's somewhere i won't feel the shame  

and no one knows all my depravity and won't hold it against me  

and will leave and leave me be

  

13. HERE & THERE (FEAT. X-YORK)

this little voice inside my head just wants to fade away

wants me to fade away but keeps pushing my fate away

and i don't listen to it often, it's just here & there

but here & there lately is all the fucking time, i swear

this little voice inside my--

i don't think it would be pretty if i let loose

there's too much there i can't control if i make a move

i think there might be one too many people accruing in this area

to keep me calm and only wanting good things ever to happen to you

or better yet, isn't that what i'm supposed to do?

or better yet, isn't that what I'm supposed to feel?

but i don't want to take part in this anymore if that's the required deal

"you got to pay for your sins now (sins now)

they seem so cheap, at least until they tear your heart down

each day you pushed away the pain when you'd feel me

each day i grew and gave the walls a higher ceiling"

this little voice inside my head just wants to fade away 

wants me to fade away but keeps pushing my fate away 

and i don't listen to it often, it's just here & there 

but here & there lately is all the fucking time, i swear 

this little voice inside my--

i don't think it would get better if i improved

i get so tired even trying now to get through

i there there might be one too many people that knew me in my mind

and getting louder and louder at night, every time i close my eyes

despite when i scream aloud

and when i don't it's just too easy to drown me out

and when i do it's at the top of my volume now

it doesn't matter 'cause they just scream through:

"you got to pay for your sins now (sins now)

they seem so innocent until they tear your heart down

no need to pack your bags for where you'll be leaving

true justice calls for blood and you're already bleeding"

this little voice inside my head just wants to fade away  

wants me to fade away but keeps pushing my fate away  

and i don't listen to it often, it's just here & there  

but here & there lately is all the fucking time, i swear  

this little voice inside my--

 

14. ROAD TO NOWHERE (FEAT. X-YORK)

either i'm still asleep or i found the road to nowhere

'cause it's not what it seems but i can't remember what is

i go from here to there in what feels like only seconds

if i dig deeper i'd soon enough just bury my head

"don't be so surprised that you could fall so far"

"don't be so surprised that you could fall so far"

"a heavy heart down here is normal and important

a reminder that the world beyond is pain

but any heart is just a shackle so remove it

then just close your eyes and listen in to me when i say:

'it's useless letting go'

'it's pointless holding on'

'it's useless letting go' 

'it's pointless holding on''

well goddamn, for a second there i forgot the weight

and even wondered if i had held the world at all

i think i'm stuck in a fever dream and just need to awake

'cause i just want to see the sky before the cracks begin to rise until they break

"this isn't somewhere you can wish for the compliance you expected from the world that left you cold. instead, i offer relief from all of your desires 'cause the fire inside burned you alive until you came crashing down."

well i admit it, i took all of it too far but go get fucked if you think i'll stay in this cage. in fact, this whole thing is over, at any moment i'll wake up and all this damage will be gone, i'll awake and see the dawn, come on... just wake!

"yell all you want, but the dark is all that listens. stop pretending this hell wasn't one you made. i've seen and lived deep inside of your mind all your life, watching every action and decision that you've ever motherfucking made."

this isn't fair it's my mind, not your concoction. what's my option if i can't ever escape? there's no allegiance to offer. i'm nothing more than a liar and can't be cured. maybe sleep is all i'm worth... maybe sleep is all i'm--

"I'll tear you apart, i'll break your world down until nothing is left" (let it go)

"I'll tear you apart, i'll break your world down" (let it go)

 

15. BITE (FEAT. X-YORK)

i don't wanna wake up again

don't wanna take a chance

don't wanna take the bait

but wanna bite

i just wanna slip away

just wanna slow my heart

just wanna crumble, never to rise

i don't wanna wake up again

yeah fuck the indecision

that's the prison that we've been in

watch the world less burdened while we're hurting

so let's give it to them

really in it for the long haul now

but you won't be watching when it all falls down

no more need for such a heavy crown

lay it down

i don't wanna wake up again 

don't wanna take a chance 

don't wanna take the bait 

but wanna bite 

i just wanna slip away 

just wanna slow my heart 

just wanna crumble, never to rise 

i don't wanna wake up again

i don't wanna wake up again

i don't wanna wake up again

i don't wanna wake up again